Inter­est­ing the books we end up read­ing on jour­neys. The first ended up being about philo­sophy, faith and reason and the love of three men at three dif­fer­ent times with a woman who was either a pagan or a jew – regard­less, an out­sider. Then _dead air_, a mar­vel­lous book about polit­ics and con­vic­tion, again with a rant about reason and faith and again with ques­tions of betrayal and what you would do for someone. Now I’m read­ing _The Impressionist_ by Hari Kunzru, a superbly writ­ten piece about belong­ing and cul­ture and shap­ing your­self to fit an idea of how you think you ought to be. Rather appro­pri­ate really.

I’m glad I took that leave of absence. Even though I feel a little lazy and I could prob­ably do some thesis work, my sup­pos­i­tion that the Span­iards would have D&G in French turned out to be incor­rect. The Bib­li­oteca de Castilla-La Mancha has got all the books I need but only in trans­la­tion – to Span­ish. (This is another issue: do I call it Span­ish or Castil­lian? There are actu­ally four lan­guages in this coun­try. In some ways, call­ing it Span­ish is like call­ing Eng­lish Brit­ish). Anyway, I had thought that, since I found Fou­cault actu­ally easier to under­stand in French than in Eng­lish that I could try read­ing D&G in French too. There’s no way I’m going to be able to read them in Castil­lian though. (Besides, there are rumours that the reason Fou­cault is so impossible to under­stand in Eng­lish is because the trans­la­tion was done by his Japan­ese boy­friend who was trans­lat­ing from French to Japan­ese to English).

I went to the Exposi­cion Centro Cul­tural de San Marcos yes­ter­day and wandered around the quite amaz­ing “Claves de Toledo, llave del futuro” (clues to Toledo, key to the future) exhib­i­tion they have at the moment. A jour­ney from the phys­ical siting of the area – the caves, the river, the dif­fi­culties of get­ting water from the river up to the city which has plagued the place since its estab­lish­ment (so obvi­ous, but I hadn’t thought about it; they’ve only had run­ning water since 1948) – to the his­tory, the way the phys­ical loc­a­tion has influ­enced the build­ings, the dif­fer­ent cul­tures and their impacts on the archi­tec­ture… I knew the flying but­tresses were Chris­tian and the curving arches I love so much Vis­igothic and Moor­ish but I hadn’t real­ised that the lack of public squares was an Arabic influ­ence; that the focus is on private space not public space and so the open spaces are all inside the houses, in grand patios around which the rooms are placed. That the only big square, Plaza Zocodover, is so named because it means beast­mar­ket in Arabic… it was not the public space we use it as today, but rather that size for trading.

There is so much more: the way the city became a centre for trans­la­tion around the turn of the mil­len­nium because the lib­rary at Cor­doba was rushed up to Toledo for safe­keep­ing and there were schol­ars in Toledo who could read Latin and Hebrew and Arabic, and could all speak Span­ish, so they could com­mu­nic­ate with each other and trans­late… they could struggle through the Greek texts that survived…

The idea that the Jews were here before the 4th cen­tury… that they prob­ably arrived as part of that first dia­spora after Nebuchadnezzar…(or how­ever you spell it… took me ages to work out that Nebocodonezir or how­ever it was spelt in the exhib­i­tion’s text was the same guy; it takes me ages to struggle though the Castil­lian text on the walls as there’s no Eng­lish trans­la­tion). That for cen­tur­ies Toledo was a centre of learn­ing, math­em­at­ics, alchemy, astro­nomy, even rumours of nec­ro­mancy in the caves under the city. The nas­cent Chris­ti­ans co-exist­ing quite hap­pily: a form of Chris­tian­ity called Moz­arab Chris­tian­ity that appar­ently still sur­vives in four churches today.

And then the Cath­ol­ics turn up and it all goes to shit. Of course, it isn’t that simple – and no offence, sil­verblue – but I do tend to lose interest once they show up any­where. All that ortho­doxy, and insist­ence of faith rather than reason. Full circle.

At the entrance of the exhib­i­tion was a glass dis­play filled with ancient keys, large iron keys, 500 years old. They are keys to doors to houses owned by Seph­ardi Jews, expelled from the city by the Church in 1492. These keys were taken to new lands in the hope that one day they would return. They were sent to rel­at­ives. Handed down from gen­er­a­tion to gen­er­a­tion. One day, they would say, we will go back and we will use this key to open the door to our fam­ily’s home again. Their names are writ­ten on the wall behind the keys. Ysaac. Avraham. Yuçaf. Yacob y su mujer. 

The next cab­inet has keys to the city. And the names of famous people the keys have been given to over the ages: Marie Curie; Pablo Neruda; Hilary Rodham Clinton. 

And in the next, the every day keys to Toledo today. Keys to houses. Keys to shops. Keys to the lib­rar­ies and the baker­ies and the hotels. Keys to the Cathed­ral and the Town Hall. And behind those, the names of the every day people who live in Toledo now. They are mostly good Cath­olic Span­ish names. Garcia. Rodrig­uez. Orgaz.

Lots to pro­cess. Where do I, tour­ist, des­per­ately trying to pre­tend I’m not a tour­ist but rather a journ­al­ist or an aca­demic, of Jewish (but Ashkenazi not Seph­ardi) her­it­age, fit into this pro­ces­sion of people and keys? How has this shift in the way we move priveleged people around the world, this flow of tour­ist dol­lars in con­cert with the abject refusal to allow others – refugees, immig­rants – to move freely around the world, how has this changed cul­ture, space, authen­ti­city? The people here are keenly aware that Spain changed sig­ni­fic­antly when the first tour­ists came. Before, under Franco, life was hard. When did it change? An old man replies: when the Amer­ic­ans came.

There’s even a McDon­alds in the Plaza Zodo­cover now. I have no answers, only more ques­tions… aca­demic, journ­al­ist indeed.

I ran out of time half-way through the exhib­i­tion. I’d been there three hours and for some reason, they wanted to close at 8.30pm. Ah, well, I shall return.