Wow, that’s been a hectic couple of days and I’ve mostly been on adren­alin, since I gave up caf­feine a few months ago (which reminds me… Mum? If I forget to actu­ally ask you this in person, could you please stop the coffee deliv­er­ies for now…thanks).

The talk at the State lib­rary was good. It touched on a few of the points that I dis­cussed with him in my inter­view, which was kinda val­id­at­ing. And there was a good dis­cus­sion after­wards, with some key issues relat­ing to my work. Someone brought up the Hardt & Negri chal­lenges to Bhabha’s work which was inter­est­ing, and one woman chal­lenged Bhabha’s use of an Adrienne Rich poem given her his­tory of iden­tit­arian polit­ics. I found that really inter­est­ing too, as she’s an edge iden­tity person by my defin­i­tions (queer and jewish)…

The drinks before­hand were just the usual kind of crowd of people stand­ing around drink­ing. I was def­in­itely just ‘the journ­al­ist’ but it was very nice to be invited and Bhabha *hugged* me hello and told me to keep in touch, and to visit if I’m ever in Amer­ica. If I do decide to be an aca­demic, this is a very good con­nec­tion to have made.

Anyhow, from tonight, I’m thinking:

  • I need to ser­i­ously think about chan­ging my term ‘edge iden­tity’ through­out if I don’t mean iden­tity. Bhabha uses ‘iden­ti­fic­a­tion’ to mean some­thing other than iden­tity. Of course, there’s the term ‘sub­ject’ and thanks to a reminder from p_cat in a response to a post ages ago, I went through and checked that I was using iden­tity and sub­jectiv­ity care­fully all the way through, but I kept ‘edge iden­tity’ until now… It’s hard to give up though, because I’ve been using it for about six years now… 
  • I’d like to use that Adrienne Rich poem as a mar­ginal text as well, since she is rel­ev­ant to my work. 
  • I think I prob­ably need to fold in another ref­er­ence to Bhabha right near the con­clu­sion, spe­cific­ally with regards to polit­ical and eth­ical dimen­sions of action. 
  • I still don’t feel like the lan­guage of my work is where I want it to be. It’s too pro­saic. Take this gor­geous sen­tence of Bhabha’s: There is no vent­ri­lo­quism of vic­tim­age here; no con­sen­sual car­to­graphy. (ignore the fact that ‘vic­tim­age’ is an awful word that i don’t think exists)

My head hurts and I think I’m going to grab an early night with a non-the­or­et­ical book for the first time in a long, long time. Meet­ing with super­visor tomorrow.