
Predator. 24.05.71 – 05.06.04. “Ah, so that’s what’s under here’
I think of all the funerals I’ve had the misfortune to attend, that one was the least like the personality of the deceased. We were reminded so many times by the priest that ”Mike” had been baptised and we were even told he was a ”believer”.
Here are his own words on that subject, addressed to the family priest, Ron:
If he so much as tries the merest hint of a precursor to a deathbed
conversion, he is really, really gonna get it. Something like:
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Ron!
There is no God!
If hell exists I am just about qualified to run the place. I’ve committed
every sin you have a commandment against and a few for which there aren’t
but bloody well should be. In no particular order:
I reprogrammed organisms which you think your god wrote.
I flung a load of vocational opportunities down the can.
I’m enjoying a debauched relationship with several women, and they appear
to be enjoying it right back.
I own porn, drugs, guns, and books by Richard Dawkins, and have used all
of them in their intended capacities.
I’ve committed carnal acts on a dead person’s tombstone.
I’ve paid to have killed my own bastard before it ever got out of the first
trimester, and I wasn’t even completely sure it was mine.
And I’ve quite possibly sired some and might sire others.
I got sly hard-ons for the blonde girl with the nice arse in the forth pew from
the back while you were doing your sturn und drang sermon about premarital sex.
And for the sleek guy in the third row from the front.
Years ago I confessed to fabricated sins I wished I’d had the guts to actually
commit and you forgave me for committing them, so later I went out and did
’em, feeling licensed with pre-emptive forgiveness.
Parts of me are immortal, so I can probably be busted for impersonating a God.
I started an organisation which breaks more laws per day than most people
break in a lifetime, and the membership loves me for it.
I’ve told the woman I love that I don’t fucking care if I see her again or not.
I’ve turned off sets of traffic lights, tapped and taped people’s phone
calls, jammed people’s radios, ripped CDs, thrown copies of Gideon’s
Bibles in the hotel toilets, dodged rent; broken/fixed, entered/departed,
and stolen anything I could carry.
I estimate I owe a couple of million in fines for trespassing in drains at
$20k a go.
I’ve lived a life to which no CV could ever bear witness. I am guilty as
charged, shameless, and unrepentant.
I have good reasons to think organised religion is a centuries-old highly
evolved information-systemic cultural parasite which has successfully
taken over your whole brain for the last sixty years primarily to use you
as a vector for its own propagation.
As for the human condition, dying *is* the fucking cure, nothing stops it, and
that includes prayer.
If you have the chutzpah to come to give me last rites, I will ensure you don’t
live long enough to recieve yours.
Anything else?
Fuck off.
Nothing personal, Ron.
At least the euology mentioned the predat0r I knew and cared for. Also a very appropriate poem by Katherine Mansfield: Risk! Risk everything! Do the most difficult thing in the world for you! Care no more for the opinions of others!
It goes on… but I can’t find it online right now.
Joss was a mess. Naomi and I had a hard time too but we all supported each other. People put a few carabiners into the grave with him and a comic book to keep him going.
There’s a tribute article to him at Sydney IndyMedia.
I’ve now read through all the bits of his journal that I missed recently. I feel so terribly selfish for concentrating on my thesis in the last month and not checking in occasionally. If only I had, I would have seen that he started going rapidly downhill around mid-May. I would have seen this entry on his 33rd birthday and I would have caught a plane up then:
Monday 24th. My birthday. I go to Edgecliffe to get more ascorbate shot up
me then to Randwick to scream at my oncologist. I can’t walk straight. I
think I will have to end the log here since I am perpertually weak. I am
dying. Goodbye.
Broadcast message from root@pred:
Sending all processes the TERM signal.