And so it goes…

I find my brain entirely shuts down when ill. I don’t feel like I have the same pro­cessing power at all. Of course, I feel guilty for any of these posts that fail to scin­til­late, espe­cially when on a jour­ney like this where I feel that if I was a real writer, I would be cap­tur­ing the moments with the flair of a Graham Greene where instead I am pro­du­cing flat JK Rowl­ing tracts.

It does­n’t help that I read let­ters to the Guard­ian from 16 year olds and feel inad­equate in the face of their com­pet­ent constructions. 

Anyhow, enough of me and lack of self-esteem while ill (an art­icle in the same Guard­ian admon­ished our ther­apy cul­ture where we bemoan a low self-opin­ion as the source of all wicked­nesses). (I almost coined a word there: admin­ish­ment, the act of cri­ti­cising through inter­min­able applic­a­tion of sec­ret­arial skills). I am also depressed by art­icles on the Church and AIDS and more.

dr_nic and delve: You are hereby strongly encour­aged to get ahold of Chaps magazine if you have not already done so. You two raff­ish lads will no doubt approve of their cam­paign to stamp out the ano­dyne of the urban by vis­it­ing Maccas and Pizza Hut to order a pousse café (appar­ently the yolk of one fresh egg, 16 gill of yellow chartreuse and a 16 gill of eau de vie de danzig, but you knew that). “The whole point about Chap­ism,” says founder Gustav Temple, “is to be eleg­ant and soph­ist­ic­ated in spite of being impe­cuni­ously situ­ated.” Long live the vim of the flan­eur, dahling.

So… the V&A and the Tate Modern. V&A was as expec­ted. Most of it is really not my period, with the Brit­ish Gal­ler­ies being 1500 – 1900 (exactly the bits I’m not inter­ested in actu­ally). I wanted to see the Medi­eval Treas­ury, which was much more Chris­tian than I was expect­ing (in hind­sight, obvi­ous). I went to see the Dress sec­tion, partly because pollyanna_n wanted to and partly because I felt like I’d be let­ting frou_frou down ter­ribly if I didn’t. I was very dis­ap­poin­ted: no his­tory of dress really, a few out­fits from each decade from the 1840s, cases with fans and gloves and wed­ding gear, but no explan­a­tions of styles or shifts in cul­ture that would aid someone like me (who isn’t into it) to under­stand what I was view­ing. It seemed very dif­fer­ent from the his­tor­ical museums which I felt gave me more con­text (Viking pin, found in loc­a­tion x, sug­gests trade occurred la la). The Tex­tiles bit upstairs was more impress­ive, and I was fas­cin­ated by the Boar Hunt and Fal­conry Tapestries, some of which are very old, mainly because I’m inter­ested in depic­tions of sec­u­lar life, although I prefer reg­u­lar folk to nobility.

I don’t think I’ve adequately raved about the bril­liance of some of the his­tor­ical museums I’ve been to and some of the recon­struc­tions of scenes from every­day medi­eval life. I think it was the Museum of His­tory in Riga that had utterly superb wooden medi­eval looms set up with weav­ing on them and stones hanging down so I could really see exactly how it was working.

Found the V&A col­lec­tion of arms and armour des­pite it not being marked on the map (it’s room 90 on the second floor) and oohed and ahhed at the swords and cross­bows (as you do). Des­pite what I say about my ‘period’ I am a big fan of the 16th cen­tury cup-hilt Span­ish rapier. In fact, the one they had in the case had Toledo stamped on the blade and looked remark­ably like the ori­ginal from which Marto is making the replicas.

Talk­ing about Spain reminds me: while in Camden Market, found out that New Rock has a much wider range of intensely sexy boots than pre­vi­ously sus­pec­ted and it’s a good thing I didn’t have money as I prob­ably don’t actu­ally need knee high purple and black chunky boots with shiny steel panels and a 5‑inch plat­form, even if they were only £70.

Back to V&A: the iron­work gal­lery was amaz­ingly fab­ulous. Simple black cur­licues of spiral and leaf. The was an incred­ible enorm­ous amethyst neck­lace given to a mar­ried woman (Frances Anne, Mar­chion­ess Lon­don­derry) by Tsar Alex­an­der I who was besot­ted, but more so were her fab­ulous words about it: “I wonder that we sur­vived the incid­ent without guilt”.

At the Ash­molean, I was stunned by some of the ancient tab­lets with cuneiform.

Then there was the Tate Modern. Loved Cor­ne­lia Park­er’s Coid Dark Matter: Exploded View, and the way the par­tially des­troyed mater­i­als evoked the tem­por­al­ity of obsol­es­cence at the same time as freez­ing and pre­serving them in their decay. I liked the decay­ing still life for sim­ilar reas­ons. I loved the curio cab­in­ets filled with the flot­sam of the Thames, and the way you can pore over the draw­ers, reveal­ing bottle caps and bones. (Reminds me of Bruce Dawe’s poem about aging, is it called Home­com­ing? Hate being sick and not remem­ber­ing things). I liked the way the Tate is organ­ised. I like the way Object/etc morphs into Land­scape. I liked that I was able to recog­nise more works without look­ing at labels this time, not just the obvi­ous ones like the Picasso and the Licht­en­stein. I like the Twombly works again, and I recog­nised which works were from fluxus without them neces­sar­ily being labelled as such. There were other newer works I liked but I can’t remem­ber names right now which annoys me. I found JAPANESE CYBER­GIRL’s work com­pel­ling and mys­tical. I was struck by how little homo­erotic mater­ial there was. Rod­in’s The Kiss is beau­ti­ful and haunt­ing. It’s bizarre seeing The Bride Stripped Bare by Her Bach­el­or’s Even as a full scale work. It’s bizarre know­ing you’re look­ing at a rep­lica. It’s bizarre that the ‘real’ Duch­amp works that are there are the cab­in­ets he made of mini­ature repro­duc­tions of his larger works and that that’s the second time I’ve seen those since some of them were on dis­play at Museum Mod­erner Kunst in Vienna too, as part of the Fluxus/Pop Art exhibition.

Could easily have spent many more hours there. I love the fact that Eng­lish museums are free.

Did I get around to men­tion­ing that on Sunday, pollyanna_n and I went to Chartwell, Churchill’s estate? Don’t think I did. That was great too. Walk­ing around Churchill’s lib­rary and study and being able to check out his book­shelves the way you check out any­one’s book­shelves was amaz­ing. Also, the exper­i­ence was an inter­est­ing counter-bal­ance to the myriad East­ern European museums about World War II and the vari­ous occu­pa­tions. The most strik­ing image is one of Churchill sit­ting with Roosevelt and Stalin. Stalin is gazing smugly at the camera. I think the date is around 1943. The Balt­ics have already been invaded. Stalin pre­sum­ably remem­bers that he made a secret non-agres­sion pact with Hitler, even if the others don’t know it yet. Stalin has already expressed interest in the Czech region and even had expli­cit dis­cus­sions about how things might be divided up. What is he think­ing in this pic­ture? What did he say? Did Churchill really do everything he might have to stop the occu­pa­tions of nations by the Soviet Army? Or was it amaz­ing he did and saw what he did, recog­nising the threat before others? Was that phrase ‘iron cur­tain’ that he coined actu­ally more of a hindrance to the cause, sug­gest­ing as it did that the new border was immov­able and the coun­tries behind it hidden from view and help? Would things have gone dif­fer­ently if he hadn’t needed to start per­sua­sion anew with Truman or if he’d kept power himself?

Anyhow, Churchill as journ­al­ist and states­man, speech­maker and thinker is a chal­len­ging figure for me, leader of the anti-Hitler bri­gade but at the same time a man who said “Vic­tory at all costs”. Why is one invader less evil than another? The same ques­tion recurs now, of course: Iraq’s inva­sion of Kuwait or pos­ses­sion of WMD is some­how more rep­re­hens­ible than Israel’s con­tinu­ing occu­pa­tion of Palestine because it suits the PTB polit­ic­ally to turn a blind eye. Mean­while, people die and walls are built.

And apo­lo­gies to delve and deep­skin to whom I owe actu­ally intel­lec­tual responses but can’t dredge them from wherever such responses dwell.