Some of you may have heard that apocraphilia had agreed to be a donor for me and that I was going to try to get pregnant early next year. I was really hoping my first public post about this was going to be a happy announcement of success.
We had a signed agreement that, unforeseen issues like medical things notwithstanding, this would go ahead soon after I returned. We explicitly discussed the chance he would enter a monogamous relationship before I returned from overseas and that wouldn’t be an issue, it would just affect method of conception.
Well, he’s entered a monogamous relationship with expoduck and has just broken our agreement, over the phone without even the courtesy of saying it to my face. Needless to say, I am heartbroken, furious, confused, hurt and a bunch of other things. I’ve sat on this for a few days so as to post a little calmly, but this is the easiest way for me to let everyone know without having to go through it over and over and end up in tears again.
I’m not going to call people names here. I’ll just say that I hope you both one day stand surrounded by your broken dreams, devastated in the wasteland of your vanished hopes, dogged by guilt and pain and feelings of uselessness. May the pain you’ve caused me be visited threefold on you both.