Wel­come to the first night of my life in a loc­a­tion where there is active sep­ar­at­ist ter­ror­ism (for those who don’t know, that’s the ETA who want the Pais Vasco (Basque Coun­try) to secede from Spain). In the last week or so, there have been three bombs, mostly against tour­ist tar­gets, one in Alic­ante, and two nearby, one actu­ally in this town.

My paci­fism at least par­tially stems from cow­ardice. I have avoided ter­ror­ist zones all my life. Des­pite urgings from Jewish par­ents to visit Israel, I have demurred. Des­pite encour­age­ment from vari­ous polit­ical acquaint­ances to visit Palestine, the same. hawkeye and I were due to spend two days in Dublin in 1999 but changed plans to attend the 400th anniversary season of Julius Caesar at the Globe (can you really blame us?). While I’d love to see Ire­land, I was some­what relieved too. Dis­cus­sions with hawkeye about being a war journ­al­ist – which he found appeal­ing – always left me cold. I feel it’s a respons­ib­il­ity, although after the whole ’embed­ded’ thing and then the near miss with Eric, I’m even less inter­ested. I’ve always wanted to believe I would have been part of the French res­ist­ance during WWII, but given that 90% of the popu­lace did noth­ing or col­lab­or­ated, what are the real chances? I mean, I chickened out of going to the Easter protest at Baxter deten­tion centre on some piss weak excuse about not having any way to get there (there were buses leav­ing filled with stu­dents… it would have cost me a whole $40).

I do agree with sab­ot­age as a tactic in polit­ical protest. I don’t agree with ter­ror­ism or anti-human action. I’m anti-imper­i­al­ist. I’m anti-colo­ni­al­ist. I agree with regional autonomy and self-determ­in­a­tion. Does that mean I agree with sep­ar­at­ism? Well, that’s where this gets incred­ibly com­plic­ated. Isn’t sep­ar­at­ism at least partly based on some atav­istic idea of ethnic purity or authen­tic cul­ture? Isn’t it, at its base, an inher­ently racist concept? 

On the other hand, since most efforts at sep­ar­at­ism are direct responses to sup­pres­sion, they look rel­at­ively easy to work out: China out of Tibet? Fuck yeah. Free East Timor? Damn straight. Indone­sia out of Aceh? Next on the list. Free West Papua? A Palestinian state? Autonom­ous North­ern Ire­land? Chechnya? The kurds? The basque? The break-up of Yugoslavia.… these notions of ethnic ‘iden­tity’ are exactly what con­cerns me with my thesis… I am strug­gling with how I feel about these things… and it’s even harder since polit­ic­ally, I don’t agree with cent­ral­ised gov­ern­ment *anyway*… Apo­lo­gies, this is hardly coherent.

It’s been a long day. I’m safely – for now – ensconced in a little hostel in Calle Amistad, two streets from the bridge across the river to the old town. Tomor­row, I will wander through its ped­es­trian-only streets and then wander over to the modern area and the Gug­gen­heim. There’s even a net café right at the end of the street…

Small note for qamar: dis­covered to my joy last night that the Span­ish word for ‘random’ is aleatorio…